Saturday, July 06, 2002

[[ Currently ]]

Feeling... expectant

Listening to... Down For You (Down Ass Chick remix) by Ja Rule, Ashanti, Charli, and Vita

Eating... nothing

Watching... nothing

I don't know why I'm sitting here typing this. I don't know why I let movies get to me so much. I don't know why I over analyze things. I don't know if I try to sound pretentious, eloquent, and thoughtful or if I'm honestly writing what I'm thinking. I've always thought that if anything, I had myself figured out. You know? I've always kind of thought, oh, I know who I am. I work hard, I'm calm (sometimes too much so), I'm too good at hiding my emotions, I have goals in life that I'm certain about, and I'm just completely ready to give myself emotionally to someone. Am I really? I never knew how much I didn't know about myself. I never knew I was so... thought out all the time. I never realized how many things there are that I don't like about myself. I never realized how much I contemplate how my thoughts will sound when I type them or say them out loud.                 posted here at @ 6:45 PM & 0 comments