Saturday, November 02, 2002

"My mind is spinning" So much to say. I was going to write all about the Dashboard show last night after we got back, but my stupid computer was going insane yet again. =/ Okay, so Mett and I got there at around 2:40 and felt pretty intimidated by the hardcore emo kids, so we decided to wander to the thrift store and The Coffee Bean. The thrift store wasn't a thrift store anymore... and we didn't get anything at The Coffee Bean. But we needed to pee really badly from all the Starbucks we drank so we wandered into the office building with the House of Blues square sign thing in front of. Mett was just like, "Erm... what's this building?" That totally cracked me up. The guy was like, "Er... an office... building." And after asking if there was a restroom to use, the guy was super nice and let us use one. It was so clean!! I think after having to use the upstairs girls bathroom which seems to always smell (not that you needed to know that), I'm easily impressed. But anyways... we basically had to freeze outside until 6:30 because the fuckers decided to let us in later. Grr. And of course, a crapload of people just decided to cut in front of us by squishing in with their friends. I was getting pretty annoyed by then, and when they let us go through for the security check, we tried to run past the people who'd cut in front of us. And Mett told me later that some chick was like "God, you don't need to run. Chris will still be there." Yeah, well, fuck you, bitch. We're running to get a better spot than shitheads like you who come at 6 fucking o clock and cut in front of us. *sigh* But of course, we got through, and we got all excited for the show, and sprinted upstairs to pee (again) and then got a kickass spot right in front of the stage but not right behind the barricade. But then we decided we should buy our t-shirts before they ran out of smalls so we leave, and when we get back, it's practically impossible to get back to our old spot. So we had to make do with our spots.... Mett in front of a girl with a giant purse and me behind a guy who smelled. Things only got worse. Noise Ratchet, the first opening act sucked horribly. All their songs sounded the same and the lead singer's pants were just way too tight. By the end of their set, I was practically pressed up against the smelly guy because some asshole in a red track jacket was trying to shove his way through Mett and I. There were a set of annoying girls next to me (one who kept dancing into me), and the girl with the giant purse was now in front of Mett jabbing her with the purse. Second opening act... Rhett Miller. They weren't so bad. Not really great, but considerably better in my opinion. Yuck. I tried elbowing Dancing Girl every time she bumped into me so she'd stop taking up so much space, but that didn't work. I tried moving my head to grab some fresh air, but it only made the guy seem like he smelled even more. Me and Mett kept trying to shove the guy behind us back, and I think he got the point even if he was still right behind us. Later on, Dancing Girl was being all indignant with her friends: "Ugh.. do these people not expect anyone to get excited? Are we just supposed to stand here and not move?" Easy for her to say... she wasn't getting rammed every other second by someone dancing. Basically, part way through the last opening band (Hot Rod Circuit), we were just soooo fed up and bitchy about it all that we left and went on the balcony where people are not pushy. Good part was we could totally hear Chris, and he wasn't drowned out even when the entire crowd started singing. Aiy.. tired feet, but good show. He played some new stuff along with the old stuff. And I was sooo happy that he played As Lovers Go. Not on a LP or EP, and I know all the words already. =D I gotta admit though, all the jerks and assholes kinda ruined things for the night. Chris was great... a lot more chatty and into it than when he opened for Weezer, but I was just feeling so irritated by then. =/ Grr... and after the show, we had to wait for a loong time for my parents because traffic on Sunset was backed up so badly. And of course... there were tons of freaks and people out for Halloween. It was freeeezing, and when we finally got in the car, I felt so relieved. But of course, traffic was still horrible. =/ And I was pretty cranky at that point. So I suppose good show, baaad day.

Okay, now on to today. I went to get Cece's birthday stuff in the early afternoon and then headed to her house. Later went to the football game and dinner at JR Cafe. Overall, today just feels like it's more than a day with all the stuff that happened.

Grades. Damn damn grades. I know I have to raise it, and I know I have to work even harder than I already am, but I really honestly feel like my parents don't understand this time. I'm not going to lie and say my parents suck because they don't. But I've never really been in the situation that I'm in now with grades and I don't think they're dealing with it right. I mean, they haven't asked me why, they haven't asked me if I need any help. All they do is say that I need to work harder (duuuuhhh). And tonight, when I was out at the cafe, and I called my mom to check in because I'd just noticed it was 12, I knew she'd be kinda pissed but she sounded... disappointed. She gave me the usual, "We've given you too much freedom since you got the car" mini speech but it was different this time because she mentioned grades and she totally seems to be blaming my grades on the fact that I go out with my friends a lot more than than year. There is no connection between the two because I never go out on weekdays and it's not like I'd be studying on Friday or Saturday nights anyways. I mean, I totally get that it was later than she wanted me to be home, but every time school isn't going as well as it can or has been, she blames it on that; that I have too much fun, I get too much freedom. Ugh. While I agree that my semester report card better not be the same as the progress report, their attitude isn't helping anything. And their desire to limit how much I can go out would only make things worse because it doesn't matter if other people can literally study 24/7, because I can't. I need breaks to get my mind off things so when I come back to it, I'm focused.                posted here at @ 1:31 AM & 0 comments